‘Golden Bachelor’ Gerry Turner Had Suicidal Ideas After Theresa Nist Divorce

Gerry Turner is opening up in regards to the brutal public backlash after his cut up with Theresa Nist … admitting the ‘Golden Bachelor’ heartbreak hit him so laborious, he spiraled into suicidal ideas.

TMZ has obtained an besides of Gerry’s upcoming memoir, “Golden Years” … and he writes that after saying his divorce simply 3 months in final 12 months, the destructive response acquired so brutal he hit all-time low … writing, “One night time, whereas I used to be mendacity in mattress and staring on the ceiling, all of it grew to become an excessive amount of, and for the briefest second, I considered placing a gun to my head.”

Within the excerpt, Gerry explains he’s at all times had a “marathon mentality” — pushing by ache realizing it might move. However he admitted that on the time, the agony felt limitless.

Gerry says the darkish ideas vanished simply as shortly … as a result of he instantly pictured his daughters, Jenny and Angie, and knew he may by no means put them by that. He clarifies the second wasn’t about eager to die … however extra about wishing he may simply disappear.

And that’s precisely what he says he craved as quickly as the general public scrutiny began piling on … writing, “I dreamed of renting a room in some distant a part of Alaska nobody had ever heard of and never popping out for a month” — a shock for him, since “he had by no means been the depressed sort.”

Gerry additionally will get candid in regards to the behind-the-scenes fallout with Theresa … saying they’d a pact to defend one another from bogus headlines, however he says she broke the deal by placing out her personal assertion simply days later.

Nonetheless, he’s promising the total journey — from actuality TV fame to heartbreak, and the teachings he’s pulled from all of it — in his memoir “Golden Years,” hitting cabinets Nov. 4.