Diddy is writing to the choose previous to his sentencing.
The 55-year-old music mogul is convicted on two counts of transportation to have interaction in prostitution, and is about to be sentenced on Friday (October 3).
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Forward of the choose’s determination, the prosecution has already requested that he get a sentencing of over a decade, whereas the protection is looking for far much less time.
Now, Diddy himself is talking out in an enchantment to the choose in his sentencing letter.
Learn the letter in full inside, which was offered to Simply Jared.
Expensive Decide Subramanian:
I hope this letter finds you properly and in good well being and spirits. Thanks for the chance to precise my ideas to you. At the start, I wish to apologize and say how sincerely sorry I’m for all the damage and ache that I’ve precipitated others by my conduct. I take full duty and accountability for my previous wrongs. This has been the toughest 2 years of my life, and I’ve nobody guilty for my present actuality and state of affairs however myself. In my life, I’ve made many errors, however I’m not operating from them. I’m so sorry for the damage that I precipitated, however I perceive that the mere phrases “I’m sorry” won’t ever be ok as these phrases alone can’t erase the ache from the previous.
Over the previous 13 months, I’ve needed to look within the mirror like by no means earlier than. My ache grew to become my trainer. My unhappiness was my motivator. I’ve to confess, my downfall was rooted in my selfishness. The scene and pictures of me assaulting Cassie play again and again in my head each day. I actually misplaced my thoughts. I used to be useless incorrect for placing my palms on the lady that I beloved. I’m sorry for that and at all times will likely be. My home violence will at all times be a heavy burden that I should ceaselessly carry. The regret, the sorrow, the remorse, the frustration, the disgrace. I truthfully really feel sorry for one thing that I couldn’t forgive another person for: in the event that they put their palms on one among my daughters. Because of this it’s so laborious for me to forgive myself. It is sort of a deep wound that leaves an unpleasant scar.
Your honor, I assumed I used to be offering for Jane regarding her and her youngster, however after listening to her testimony, I spotted that I damage her. For this I’m deeply sorry.
I misplaced my method. I acquired misplaced in my journey. Misplaced within the medication and the surplus. My downfall was rooted in my selfishness. I’ve been humbled and damaged to my core. Jail is designed to interrupt you mentally, bodily and spiritually. Over the previous 12 months there have been so many instances that I wished to surrender. There have been some days I assumed I’d be higher off useless. The previous me died in jail and a brand new model of me was reborn. Jail will change you or kill you—I select to reside.
Each day since my incarceration, as tough as my circumstances at present are, I’ve made one of the best of my time by studying books, writing, understanding, or in remedy acquiring the instruments and data to cope with my previous drug abuse and anger points. I’ve been placing within the work and dealing diligently to develop into one of the best model of myself to make sure that I by no means make the identical errors once more.
I understand that I’m in a state of affairs the place no sum of money, energy or fame can save me. Solely God can save me. My grandmother used to show me that God makes no errors and that all the pieces He does is in your good. I imagine {that a} unhealthy state of affairs can be utilized for good. Though this example has been the toughest and darkest time in my life, good issues have come out of my incarceration. For starters, I’m now sober for the primary time in 25 years. I’ve been making an attempt my greatest to cope with my drug abuse and anger points and take accountability in addition to constructive steps in the direction of therapeutic. Probably the most lovely issues I’ve skilled is being requested by my fellow inmates to show and mentor them. They wished to be taught what I did to develop into a profitable enterprise man. I used to be impressed by their starvation and want to be taught data in an effort to not solely set targets however obtain any aim/dream that their hearts want. I began educating a 6 week program known as Free Recreation (title given by my fellow inmates), which I used to be capable of have permitted and sanctioned by the Bureau of Prisons (BOP). I don’t simply train about my success, I additionally train about my errors and failures. It has really been a blessing to do one thing constructive in a adverse state of affairs. It has been lovely to see the newfound hope in my fellow inmates’ eyes. Probably the most surprising factor was to see the unity and the peace this class has produced. As you’re most likely conscious, jails and prisons are segregated locations. Nevertheless, in our class, we’ve got Black, Spanish, White and Asian all collectively in a single room studying and dealing collectively. We even have an interpreter for the Spanish talking inmates. The most important miracle that I’ve seen with this class is all the gangs equivalent to Bloods, Crips, MS-13s, Trinitarios and 18th Streets, in a single room working collectively. I’m additionally proud to say that since this class began, there have been no fights in our unit. This class has additionally helped me in my time of want and despair. Having the ability to do one thing good for others has additionally given me a lot wanted hope. God blessed me with this chance to assist others and I’ll proceed to take action.
I ask you for mercy right this moment, not just for my sake, however for the sake of my kids. God blessed me with 7 lovely kids—3 sons and 4 daughters. Their names are Quincy, Justin, Christian, Likelihood, Jessie, D’lia and the latest addition, a 2 12 months previous daughter, Love. 4 of my kids misplaced their mom, Kim Porter, as she tragically handed away in 2018. I’m their solely mother or father. I’ve failed my kids as a father. My father was murdered once I was 3 years previous so I do know first-hand what it’s to not have a father. Greater than something, I simply need the chance to return house and be the daddy that they want and deserve. God additionally blessed me with the best mom on this planet. My mom sacrificed her life and desires to supply for me and my youthful sister, Keisha. She labored 3 jobs to ensure we had a roof over our heads, garments on our backs and one of the best training. My mom is now 84 years previous and he or she not too long ago had mind surgical procedure. Regardless of her personal well being challenges, she attended my trial on daily basis. I’ve at all times been her main caregiver. It breaks my coronary heart that I put myself on this state of affairs and for the primary time, I’m unable to be there for my mom when she wants me most . As I write you this letter, I’m scared to demise. Scared to spend one other second away from my mom and my kids. I not care concerning the cash or the celebrity. There’s nothing extra vital to me than my household. I perceive that one issue the Court docket has to contemplate is deterrence. Deterrence for me and for others to make sure that nobody follows in my footsteps and makes the identical errors.
For over a 12 months, I’ve been locked in a single room with twenty-five different incarcerated individuals, sharing the identical one room. On this room that I share, there are not any home windows, there is no such thing as a pure/clear air, there is no such thing as a daylight and all of us reside in a single room. We eat, sleep, use the bathroom, take showers, and put together meals all in the identical room. The situations that my actions have positioned me in are inhumane. I don’t let you know this for pity or sympathy. I’m merely sharing my reality and the reality of my fellow incarcerated individuals. We’ve no clear ingesting water and we boil our ingesting water. All of us share one washer (which is damaged). I’m surrounded by medication and reside on daily basis with the fixed menace of being stabbed or dropping my life. Once more—I’m not anticipating pity or sympathy, however my time at MDC has modified me ceaselessly!
Previous to being in jail, I took care of and was current for my household. Being in jail, and due to my conduct, I misplaced the flexibility to take care of my mom. I misplaced the flexibility to successfully elevate and assist my kids. I’ve missed my three (3) daughter’s proms and graduations. I’ve missed taking one among my daughters to varsity. I’ve misplaced the liberty to show my two 12 months previous the right way to communicate, dance, play, or be there to console her when she falls down or has a nightmare.
I began from nothing and labored laborious to earn all the pieces I had. However due to my conduct, I’ve misplaced all of my companies. I’ve misplaced my profession. I misplaced the constitution colleges that I began and I’ve destroyed my fame and stained the fame of those who labored for me. I misplaced my being current with my household. Between of all of my losses and classes, I can state for a undeniable fact that I’ll by no means be in one other legal Courtroom once more and I don’t imagine some other particular person would do something related from worry of comparable punishment. In case you give me an opportunity, I would really like the chance to share my story with individuals to forestall no less than one particular person from making the errors that I’ve made.
I can’t change the previous, however I can change the longer term. I do know that God put me right here to remodel me. Since incarceration, I’ve gone via a non secular reset. I’m on a journey that may take time and laborious work. I’m proud to say I’m working more durable than I ever have earlier than. I’m dedicated to the journey of remaining a drug free, non-violent and peaceable particular person. I thank God that I’m stronger, wiser, clear, clear and sober. God makes no errors. I understand that this trial has acquired an incredible quantity of world press and Your Honor could also be inclined to make an instance out of me. I’d ask Your Honor to make me an instance of what an individual can do if afforded a second probability. In case you permit me to go house to my household, I promise I can’t allow you to down and I’ll make you proud.
At this time, I humbly ask you for one more probability—one other probability to be a greater father, one other probability to be a greater son, one other probability to be a greater chief in my group, and one other probability to reside a greater life. I’m penning this to not acquire any sympathy or pity, this expertise is just the reality of my existence and has modified my life ceaselessly and I’ll by no means commit against the law once more
Thanks in your time and consideration.
Sean Combs
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