The bestselling creator of Eat, Pray, Love is again with a memoir not like something she’s ever written earlier than.
Elizabeth Gilbert’s newest e-book, All The Method To The River, launched on September 9, dives into far darker and extra unsettling territory than her epic tales of self-discovery — as a result of at its coronary heart, the e-book facilities on habit, heartbreak, and even a chilling homicide plot.
On the middle of the story is Gilbert’s relationship together with her late accomplice, musician and author Rayya Elias, who died from pancreatic and liver most cancers in 2018.
Gilbert first introduced their relationship in 2016, after ending her marriage to José Nunes, the person she famously met throughout her Eat, Pray, Love journey.
On the time, she described strolling “via this most cancers journey together with her, not solely as her pal, however as her accomplice. I’m precisely the place I must be — the one place I will be.”
However behind the heartfelt posts, Gilbert now admits the reality was much more sophisticated than anybody ever realizes. In All The Method To The River, she reveals their relationship was tormented by habit and dysfunction.
“Rayya was an unrecovered drug addict, and I used to be an unrecovered codependent,” Gilbert writes. “And so it’s not shocking that … each of us scurried to cover the reality from ourselves, one another, and the world about … how darkish our lives had develop into.”
The stunning discoveries don’t cease there.
At one level, Gilbert even confesses she fantasized about killing Elias. “If I might knock her out with sleeping drugs,” she writes, “then I might stick an entire bunch of fentanyl patches on her again as soon as she was unconscious, and that will certainly kill her.”
She finally deserted the thought when Elias started to suspect that one thing was incorrect.
Whereas this memoir is a far cry from the inspirational tone of Eat, Pray, Love, Gilbert additionally turns the memoir inward. All through the e-book she admitted she has struggled together with her personal addictive tendencies — to not substances, however to like itself. She describes herself as a “romantic obsessive” since childhood, with patterns of unhealthy attachment that adopted her into maturity.